You CAN Overcome ANYTHING!!!

One thing that bothers me to pieces is when people say "I was abused as a child, so that is why I am the way I am" or "I had a bad childhood so that is why I steal". This is flat out utter BS! You CHOOSE to wake up in a good mood or a bad one, you CHOOSE to steal, you CHOOSE to abuse your children. NOBODY made you do anything. I have had a rough childhood: abused, neglected and belittled, but I CAN DO ANYTHING I PUT MY MIND ON!!! You hinder yourself, not others. You are the one that put limitations on your achievements, goals and dreams. The sky is the limit for anyone, no matter their past.

I do not allow my past to interfere with my present or future. I do believe that your past influences you. However you can either learn from your past and try to make a better future for yourself, or you can make excuses for your life because of what you've been through. Your past can impact how you make decisions, but do not make excuses based on your past for any bad decisions. Making excuses for how you live and what you do with your life based on your past is unacceptable. It happened, whatever it is, it happened. Now learn from it, don't let it happen again, fight for what is right and move on. Take what you know and try to change the world... FOR THE BETTER!

God has put you in a situation so you can learn from it, not try to gain pity from others for it. It is unfair to society for you not to grow up and be a productive member of the world. Teach others how not to be... Give back to the world... Be supportive of someone going through the same thing. Just please, please do not blame your past on how you live your life. You can overcome, adapt and live a very good, positive life just choose to! It's as simple as waking up in the morning and saying to yourself, this is going to be a good day!

Why "Transformations of a Caterpillar"

I chose the title of my blog, Transformations of a Caterpillar, because that is how I see myself.  I feel that as a child I was so ugly. Not necessarily in a physical way, although I have struggled with my outward appearance, but on the inside, where I came from and what I knew.  I had the sins of my "parents" to carry around, I was different, I was not comfortable in my own skin, I was pushed around and most of all until I was in my mid teens I felt completely and utterly alone as well as unloved.  Much is the same as a caterpillar, although I think they know that they are destined for a beautiful life of fluttering.  But at the stage that they are a caterpillar and they are by no means "beautiful", they don't socialize and I'm sure they enter a point in their lives that they are not comfortable in their own skin, thus the amazing transformation.  Caterpillars grow so fast that they can shed their skin up to 5 times before they make the amazing transformation.  I too know that feeling.  Ok, so I never shed my skin, however I did have massive growing pains.  I am 6'3.5"!!! In junior high I quit playing basketball, a sport that I love, because by growing pains were outrageous!

I am a strong resilient person, but it came at a price.  I don't easily trust people, I keep my emotions (until now) to myself, I guard my heart with a massive stone wall and I always second guess peoples intentions.  I am headstrong and persistent, but also very caring and nurturing.  A caterpillar must be fond of these feelings as well.  They are extremely protective of themselves, as bigger creatures (birds) like to eat them!  They can be poisonous or even spray acid at their attacker.  What super sneaky creatures they are!  Caterpillars eventually will change into a beautiful creature, a Butterfly!  They will then flutter around and make people smile.  What was once considered a nuisance is now a much needed pollinator! They also aid in eating insects that may be harmful to crops.  They migrate and socialize. They are beautifully delicate and smart, they can blend into their surroundings and also show off their flair.

I want to be that one day, I want to transform into a butterfly!

New At This! :)

Hello All!!!

I am going to start this blog so that I may finally start my life diary!  I hope to make this something that my friends and family can come to to try and gain a better understanding of me AND to help keep up with my crazy life!!! I also want this to be the founding of my book that I have tried writing time and time again.  I hope to inspire other kids who have come from my background and to share my viewpoint on a few issues concerning foster care.  I have been on 2 of the 3 sides of this 'system' and see many flaws.  I guess I want this blog to be a site that will answer a few questions, share my life story and make people think about their actions. 

I have learned that everyone has had heartache.  It may be something that the general public considers great or insignificant, but the point is is that it was significant to you.  Every event in our lives influences our choices later in life. Everyone is handed a set of circumstances and it is up to us as individuals to react POSITIVELY to those circumstances.  It is hard, but life isn't what makes or break us, it is how we handle life that makes or breaks us!

If you have any questions feel free to leave a comment and I will address it ASAP! :)  I am a graduate student, so time may sometimes lapse before I can sign back on and make a decent statement, but I will get to it!